I love you all! Haha! Anyway, if you always log on to blogger just waiting for my post I'll have to disappoint you for a while. I'm gonna be a little MIA for the week. My Nonno (grandfather in Italian) passed away a week before christmas and the funeral is this weekend. It's been a tough week revisiting my thoughts and sorrows from the week he passed away but I'm ready to be back with family and celebrate his life.
Disclaimer: Rambling ahead
It's been a little tough for me thinking about my Nonno's death because he wasn't a Christian. This doesn't mean that I think he's down in Hell. I can't really explain what I feel. I don't know how to pray to God for help and peace for someone who wasn't a believer. If I'm confusing you, I'm sorry... I'm confusing myself. I do not believe God is a bad man. I know that whatever he has in store for my Nonno has now come true but I guess I'm scared to think about what that is. My personal belief, I respect all other beliefs and hope that you respect mine too, is that there is no Hell. I don't believe that my God is cruel enough to condemn someone to such a thing. Then what happens to the people who don't ask for his forgiveness to get permitted into heaven? (worded in my own words) I don't know! Does everyone get in? Do they just lie in the earth, souls and all? I guess since I've been struggling with my own beliefs so much it's made it harder to come to peace with his death.
I know the unknown is part of faith but I just wish I could find some kind of answer or comfort.
If you stuck with me, you rock. If not, I still love you. Comments, advice, or questions are welcome just please don't bash my beliefs because I won't bash yours. I can't take anything else right now.
